25mortonstreet’s Weblog

This morning I did a crazy thing. I wrote a long letter to a woman I don’t even know. I just read her blog by coincidence and it touched me deeply. She started the blog writing about her son whom she adopted from Vietnam and ended up having breast cancer. I think every mother especially to a young child can understand the fear of dying. You think, if it was only about me, but I can’t bear my child loosing it’s mother. And in her case it would be the second mother her boy would loose.
That is so wrong. It didn’t leave me and I kept on writing letters to her in my head and eventually this morning for real. It started: „God want’s to tell you, that this is a time of victory and not of defeat“ It sounds crazy, but I strongly felt she has to know this and I strongly felt it is true.

Luzie came into my bed this morning. It was still dark. Her stomach hurt up to her chest. She was on and off sick with her tummy for the last few days. She was terrified about the pain. I prayed for her and after a few minutes the pain was completely gone. She jumped out of the bed and went to school as if nothing had happened. After that I wrote the letter.

When I got up, there was no tea left. I went out to buy some. I didn’t even bother to brush my teeth. I like to drink my morning tea undressed, unwashed and unbrushed in my bed. So I just put on my long woolen jacket and big sunglasses, hoping nobody would look at me so early in the morning.
Spar had just opened. Five men in working clothes walked towards me on the parking lot and every single one of them greeted me friendly. In the shop, the guy who stocked the shelves looked up from his work to greet me and so did every person who crossed my way. Sitting in my car, a man across the street waved frantically at me. I nodded back and started the car. The guy came up to me and stopped. I had to open the door, because the window is broken and he said, „I am sorry, you must think I am completely crazy, but I thought you were the girl from the health shop. You looked exactly like her from the back“.